Sometimes things just come along that you do not expect in the least. I plan on moving to another continent in a few months, why the hell would I want a romantic entanglement here in Colorado? Why would I want something that will tie me down? I want my freedom! Well something has come along. Unexpected for sure, but its there. I don't know what exactly, its far too early to make any sort of predictions, whether realistic or ridiculous but that feeling is there. That "i haven't been this excited about someone in (insert some measurement of time here)"
Yep its there, and there is no denying it. We just have fun, we laugh and joke, and have cool discussions (we come from very different scholarly backgrounds he is PhD Computer Science / Mathematician student who works in the biology field right now - and I well you know Anthro, philosophy, Macro in other words), we snuggle and make out. There is not a lack of chemistry that is for sure. We get along swimmingly, and its easy! It has never felt like work to force a conversation, there are comfortable silences (something I find shocking after only knowing a person for 2 days - true we did spend 26 hours of those two days together so some level of comfort must be expected - but does that comfort level come from the time or the ease with which it is spent? I don't think time alone can do that), there are funny jokes, teasing back and forth, I even snored in his ear at one point and he never once let me go. It is in that period of "wow I met this awesome dude, that I totally respect as a human being and as an intellectual, there is some mystery there, I feel totally safe when I am with him, he makes me laugh, makes me breakfast and French press coffee (that is brownie points right there) and my knees buckle" where are the faults here???? What am I supposed to do with that? I mean at this point I am slightly in awe of the guy. He is just a fucking awesome man.
So I ask again why?
Well I have managed to once again fall into the trap of assumptions. Clearly by asking why I am assuming that this will go somewhere, and while I hope that it does indeed continue in some form or another, I find myself asking myself why I am asking why. Why can't I just let it be whatever the hell it will be? Who knows where this world will take me, who knows what is in store? If for some reason something comes of this than awesome, totally down, but at the same time, how ridiculous is it to wonder about what the future holds in this case? I think its time for a little life lesson about letting go more. Clearly I cannot control the future so why start worrying about something that may not even happen and if something does happen the sad part is months away.
For now I am going to sit back and enjoy the journey, cause hey, isn't that what its all about anyway?
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Colorado Adventuring
Ok people. I have been in Colorado for about two weeks now. It has been awesome! I spend my days with my mom and grandmother making peach jam, spiced peaches, canning peaches, making peach syrup, peach chutney for meat (I am not kidding this is legit what I have been doing). We have two peach trees in our backyard and well my mom and grandmother are crazy so we have made 25 jars of peach jam, 5 jars of peach syrup, 5 jars of chutney, 12 jars of just canned peaches in simple syrup, and 6 jars of spiced peaches. How random is that???
I have also gone on two quasi-date things with the same guy, we kissed today, not good - it was like kissing my cousin or something, no sparks at all... Well he is cool, I hope he will be ok with just being friends, how do you tell someone that your just not into it? I hate this... this is why I don't date.
I have also been going riding. Like on horses. Thats been pretty cool, I am getting better at it, which is good because I love to ride. My mom has been giving me some lessons. I galloped the other day... slightly terrifying when you are unsure of how to stop.
I also got into a minor car accident last weekend. I was with my bro and some friends down in Boulder, we decided to buy some Salvia (HOLY SHIT! story will come later). So we picked some up, everyone was wasted except for me so naturally I was the driver. Anyway, I pull out of a parking spot, legit look both ways but somehow don't see a massive blue SUV coming down the hill... Am I blind? I catch it before its bad, slam on my breaks and the kid grazes along my license plate I actually bumped him going like 2 mph... a nothing right? well the kid (who was deaf btw, did not know that deaf people were allowed to drive - good to know that in some circumstances a horn may not make another driver aware of the fact that you are already in the spot they are encroaching on) was pretty cool about it, we decided no cops, he is fine, I am fine, its all legit, trade info, a little over cautious about the whole thing but whatever. His car has scratches, mine is fine except where my license plate once was, we call it a day. He gets some quotes, $2,000 fucking dollars... for scratches! yeah... so I call my insurance company give them a heads up and his info, text him and tell him its all taken care of, my insurance co will contact him and he is good to go. He says "Ok, I am calling the cops" WHAT?!?!?! decided to file a report just cause. I asked my insurance company if they required a police report, they said no, and I told him that! sooooo.... why call the cops? don't know... So a cop calls me while I am out on that first date with the dude that I am not super into, I ignore the call, no problem call them later. Cop leaves obnoxiously cop like message so I call him back, leave a VM, still have heard nothing... I do not know what is going on. But moral of the story, do not hit deaf kids driving big blue SUVs... They seem cool at first but later turn on you.
ok salvia... WOW blew my mind... First time that night could not stop laughing cause the color red was EVERYWHERE... second time, nothing, I didn't hit it right or something... third time... oooohhhhh man... I was in another world! I was chillin on the couch, totally normal, it hasn't hit yet, so my friend decides to be funny and starts flickering the lights I immediately freak out because I am afraid that I will freak out so I hide under this massive white blanket. Then it hits me... I am GONE! I remember some of it, but apparently I kept saying "Shhhhh... don't laugh, they are in here with me... shhhh... look! ooooo! They are in here oh my god! shhhh..." for like 2 minutes... when I came out from under the blanket and resurfaced into the normal world my brother goes "Brit, what was happening???" I start dieing laughing and say "The Rockies duhhhh!" I was climbing the Rocky mountains underneath a blanket and it all made so much sense... oh boy...
So Miah and I came back from our Boulder adventure, exhausted, missing the front license plate from my car, and in a a severe salvia hangover, only to discover that we had a shit ton of peach picking and canning and jamming to do... oh man. So that has been CO in a nutshell...
OH WAIT! Crazy story!
So I decide to go out the other night, Labor day night, so Monday, to meet up with this kid at Buffalo Wild Wings near my house, he is 30 min late, I am 5 min early so I start drinking alone. Meet these two awesome dudes at the bar - not kidding their names were Johnnie Walker and Josh Jameson - I made them show me their I.D.s it was legit. They had just met at the bar 30 min before I came in so we all bonded in the whole strangers thing. Then Jaimie (the guy I was meeting up with) comes in, we all order shots and booze and the night is starting off glorious. We all mesh really well, have a blast don't want the night to end at 1. So Johnnie calls up his friend to see if the pool hall where she works is open... nada, by this point its 1:30... so I suggest we go to a titty-bar! They stay open later! So I pull out a 20 in cash, exchange it for ones at a gas station and we call the titty-bar... they close in ten minutes... FUCK.... So Johnnie says, hey! I have a hot tub and a fire pit in my apt complex, no booze, but its something to do! So we all agree, walk over to his complex, hop the fence and get into the hot tub..... so fun! we are in there for like an hour, Josh passes out in the hot tub, refuses to get out, very funny. We head over to the fire pit I attempt to wring out my bra, does no good, we turn on the fire, Johnnie has some blankets and we all wrap up... except Jaimie... this kid lol decides he wants to dry out his boxers. So he just gets naked. In the middle of the complex, I have pictures! oh man, by the time his shorts are dry its 4 am, I decide to head home... what a glorious night, 4 strangers coming together on Labor day night, end up in a hot tub at 3 am and a fire by 4 am... You can't make this fairy tale kind of stuff up
And that is CO in a nutshell... at least so far. More stories will come, I still have a shit ton of Salvia... love that its legal!
I have also gone on two quasi-date things with the same guy, we kissed today, not good - it was like kissing my cousin or something, no sparks at all... Well he is cool, I hope he will be ok with just being friends, how do you tell someone that your just not into it? I hate this... this is why I don't date.
I have also been going riding. Like on horses. Thats been pretty cool, I am getting better at it, which is good because I love to ride. My mom has been giving me some lessons. I galloped the other day... slightly terrifying when you are unsure of how to stop.
I also got into a minor car accident last weekend. I was with my bro and some friends down in Boulder, we decided to buy some Salvia (HOLY SHIT! story will come later). So we picked some up, everyone was wasted except for me so naturally I was the driver. Anyway, I pull out of a parking spot, legit look both ways but somehow don't see a massive blue SUV coming down the hill... Am I blind? I catch it before its bad, slam on my breaks and the kid grazes along my license plate I actually bumped him going like 2 mph... a nothing right? well the kid (who was deaf btw, did not know that deaf people were allowed to drive - good to know that in some circumstances a horn may not make another driver aware of the fact that you are already in the spot they are encroaching on) was pretty cool about it, we decided no cops, he is fine, I am fine, its all legit, trade info, a little over cautious about the whole thing but whatever. His car has scratches, mine is fine except where my license plate once was, we call it a day. He gets some quotes, $2,000 fucking dollars... for scratches! yeah... so I call my insurance company give them a heads up and his info, text him and tell him its all taken care of, my insurance co will contact him and he is good to go. He says "Ok, I am calling the cops" WHAT?!?!?! decided to file a report just cause. I asked my insurance company if they required a police report, they said no, and I told him that! sooooo.... why call the cops? don't know... So a cop calls me while I am out on that first date with the dude that I am not super into, I ignore the call, no problem call them later. Cop leaves obnoxiously cop like message so I call him back, leave a VM, still have heard nothing... I do not know what is going on. But moral of the story, do not hit deaf kids driving big blue SUVs... They seem cool at first but later turn on you.
ok salvia... WOW blew my mind... First time that night could not stop laughing cause the color red was EVERYWHERE... second time, nothing, I didn't hit it right or something... third time... oooohhhhh man... I was in another world! I was chillin on the couch, totally normal, it hasn't hit yet, so my friend decides to be funny and starts flickering the lights I immediately freak out because I am afraid that I will freak out so I hide under this massive white blanket. Then it hits me... I am GONE! I remember some of it, but apparently I kept saying "Shhhhh... don't laugh, they are in here with me... shhhh... look! ooooo! They are in here oh my god! shhhh..." for like 2 minutes... when I came out from under the blanket and resurfaced into the normal world my brother goes "Brit, what was happening???" I start dieing laughing and say "The Rockies duhhhh!" I was climbing the Rocky mountains underneath a blanket and it all made so much sense... oh boy...
So Miah and I came back from our Boulder adventure, exhausted, missing the front license plate from my car, and in a a severe salvia hangover, only to discover that we had a shit ton of peach picking and canning and jamming to do... oh man. So that has been CO in a nutshell...
OH WAIT! Crazy story!
So I decide to go out the other night, Labor day night, so Monday, to meet up with this kid at Buffalo Wild Wings near my house, he is 30 min late, I am 5 min early so I start drinking alone. Meet these two awesome dudes at the bar - not kidding their names were Johnnie Walker and Josh Jameson - I made them show me their I.D.s it was legit. They had just met at the bar 30 min before I came in so we all bonded in the whole strangers thing. Then Jaimie (the guy I was meeting up with) comes in, we all order shots and booze and the night is starting off glorious. We all mesh really well, have a blast don't want the night to end at 1. So Johnnie calls up his friend to see if the pool hall where she works is open... nada, by this point its 1:30... so I suggest we go to a titty-bar! They stay open later! So I pull out a 20 in cash, exchange it for ones at a gas station and we call the titty-bar... they close in ten minutes... FUCK.... So Johnnie says, hey! I have a hot tub and a fire pit in my apt complex, no booze, but its something to do! So we all agree, walk over to his complex, hop the fence and get into the hot tub..... so fun! we are in there for like an hour, Josh passes out in the hot tub, refuses to get out, very funny. We head over to the fire pit I attempt to wring out my bra, does no good, we turn on the fire, Johnnie has some blankets and we all wrap up... except Jaimie... this kid lol decides he wants to dry out his boxers. So he just gets naked. In the middle of the complex, I have pictures! oh man, by the time his shorts are dry its 4 am, I decide to head home... what a glorious night, 4 strangers coming together on Labor day night, end up in a hot tub at 3 am and a fire by 4 am... You can't make this fairy tale kind of stuff up
And that is CO in a nutshell... at least so far. More stories will come, I still have a shit ton of Salvia... love that its legal!
Thursday, September 9, 2010
A much needed rant... sorry
Today one of my “friends” on facebook asked me to join their cause. It was called “STOP THE BUILDING OF MOSQUE NEAR GROUND ZERO SITE!!!
Now any one who knows me would obviously not invite me to such a ridiculous “cause”. Lets just get one thing strait here, I am not going to join. I am very much for the recreation center (because it is NOT a mosque – it is a rec center with a prayer room) being built. The space is privately owned, it will be privately funded by ahem... this is the kicker, the largest shareholder of FOX”news” aside from Murdoch. Yet FOX“news” has called this “guy” (they refuse to refer to him by name because someone might recognize him as the largest owner of FOX”news” outside of Murdoch) a sponsor of terrorist. Yup... they called one of their owners a financier of extremists. His name you ask? Why its alwaleed bin talal. He runs a little company called “The Kingdom Foundation” and is the nephew of King Abdulluh (king of Saudi Arabia).
So it is actually sort of being partially financed by the earnings of FOX“news”. Ok so now we have established that some American money is backing this PRIVATE enterprise (oh is Capitalism only good when it is doing what you want it to do? Yeah the notions of private enterprise can be a bitch when it isn't doing what you want it to.... sorry... tell that to the Jamaicans, they know). Ok so its clearly well within the bounds of our God of Capitalism. What about Capitalism's God-bitch, Democracy, how does she feel about it?
Weelllll...... considering the fact that America was born on immigration and freedom of religion, one would think that it fits in ok. I mean, isn't that why the first (or maybe second depending on what you call the native Americans) immigrants came to this country? The right to freedom of religion and freedom from religious persecution? It's kind of like the two BIGGEST American foundation myths. Doesn't it seem to suggest that building a Moslem rec center should be allowed? Its not like the tax-payers are funding this... FOX“news” certainly made that clear.
Ok, so it's fine by Capitalism and her bitch Democracy, what about the American character? How does it fit into our national character and our emotions?
Well... this requires a littles escapade into the land of crazytown. The cause that I was talking about earlier (yeah the one that looks really impressive and forbidding with its over use of CAPS and !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) people are saying some very funny things. I will share a few,
Johnathon Scott Steed writes:
“One nation under God, not Alah. Somebody needs to remind president Obama what this country was founded on, to build a mosque in the place where we were attacked is a slap in the the face to every true american. God have mercy on our souls.”
First of all, Allah is spelled with two Ls.... second, America/ns is supposed to be capitalized. And I have always heard that when you capitalize something it means you respect it (subconciously) and when you don't you subconsciously do not respect it. What does this guys non-capitalization of “american” say? Just curious.
In Response to J. Steed I say this:
You fucking idiotic ignoramus – this country was FOUNDED ON RELIGIOUS FREEDOM AND TOLERANCE – ARE YOU A MORON? (isn't all CAPS impressive? I can do it too!!!!!!!!!!!!!) actually please don't answer that. You are clearly one of the DUMBEST people in America (I respect my country). The fact that you even bring up America's foundations as a means to justify not allowing a Moslem rec center to be built just shows how insanely dumb you really are. Please do not procreate. I do not want your stupid children to be a part of the next generation that will someday run this country. Maybe go jump off something really high, or bang your head against a wall. And please, “God have mercy on our souls”? Dude... its over used... stop being fucking dramatic... seriously go bang your head against a brick wall.
That is all.
Tracy Patmore writes:
“What an offensive proposition. My thoughts go out to all the people who died on that terrible day. What kind of message does that send?”
My response (she at least can spell and string words together and use correct capitalization):
Clearly it sends a message of Tolerance. You know that little thing that America was founded on? If we really want to beat the extremists that threaten the world (um and not just Moslem extremists, have ya heard of a little group called the Westboro Baptists? Or what about those fucking idiots in florida (I don't respect florida I guess) burning copies of the Quran on 9/11) then we have to walk the walk. Sure America talks a great game, freedom, democracy, human rights, blah blah blah, but do we actually DO it??? ummmm sometimes? Yeah lets get a little street cred in the world and fucking walk the walk... there is hope for you Tracy, think a little bit more and you may actually become something. Good for you.
Glenda Kimbleton writes:
“Why should these people be allowed to build a mosque at Ground Zero or anywhere else in the U.S. We as Christians can not go to any of their countries and build a church or even speak of God. Let them go back where they came from and build all they want and cant until they fall out. Te were not invited to come to tis country and they are welcome to join us as Americans and Christians or they can go back as quickly as they came. Let the ones who come here learn to speak our language and worship our God or go backw\
w”
ok wow....... first of all.... learn to spell or maybe type.... seriously there is too much wrong with this to get into.
My response:
Glenda.... oh Glenda, Glenda Glenda.... you should really look into things before you say something. There are Christians in the Middle East that have Churches. Also have you not ever heard of a little thing called missionaries? Yeah its this small-scale movement, maybe you haven't heard of it where you come from in Dumbshit America. You know Christians (usually white men actually) kind of go to these places and relieve the poor savages of their backward ideas about life and Gods and their whole existence, and bring them into the fold of the Almighty. They tend to build churches in these place and preach about God and worship God and generally talk about him. Did you know that there are Arab Christians???? Yes! Really! There really are! Fucking Shocking right?!?! Oh Oh Oh and did you know that Moslems also revere Jesus???? did you??? ohhhhhhh and lets not forget that by your logic we should kick out all the Jews in America because they are not Christians, hell even those crazy Moslems look up to the dude... but the Jews... not them... so America is Christian and only Christian huh? Wow...... did not know that... I am SHOCKED. Does that mean that Buhddists are not allowed here? Sooo.... the Dalai Lama not welcome here???? interesting.............. and as far as your beautifully constructed sentence (which wow... made so much sense) “Let them go back where they came from and build all they want and cant until they fall out.” Building requires money, infrastructure, a stable government....... you know small things like that.... Let me tell ya a little something, America kinda fucked em over dude... yeah... wow... I said it. Iraq, well we stopped them from nationalizing their oil, took out the dude in power that had any sort of legitimacy and installed Sadam Hussein!!! yeah! Not Joking! And Afghanistan, where a shit ton of the terrorists come from, we funded them! The CIA did... it was a proxy war, (have you heard of those? Look into 'em there was a lot of shit that went down) Charlie Wilson... there is a movie about it, maybe if you don't want to pick up a book and read about it you will be able to convince yourself to watch a movie with Tom Hanks... very good, I hope your minuscule brain can handle it. The US and Israel gave the people weapons to kill Russians! And not just any people, but organized Moslem groups, known as offshoots of the Moslem Brotherhood (the one and the same group that Osama bin Laden came from... Holy fucking shit!!!!!) sooooo yeah let them go build until they fall out (I have no fucking idea what that even means Glenda... you need some edumakation my friend) with all that money that they have... cause yeah well oops they don't really have any... ha! Here is an idea, why don't you go meet J. Steed from above and bang your head against a wall with him! You know, become a productive member of society for once!
There is more.... much much much more.... if you are curious, please go look it up... I mean you can't make this shit up... here! This is the link!
http://www.causes.com/causes/506789?m=ec6389c6&recruiter_id=107392495&t=1283089030
(sorry last one, no comment... its just fucking funny. Preston Hitchcock writes: “America need to kick out them damn muzlam and tare down all mosques and burn the karan”) it speaks for itself.
So anyway back to our national character. It will be good for Americans. We as a nation need to keep growing. There are clearly still FAR too many idiots out there.... the only way we are going to keep growing up is to go through the painful changes. America NEEDS this Moslem rec-center to be built. Its simple.
On a more serious note.... I am going to go have a banana yum!
Now any one who knows me would obviously not invite me to such a ridiculous “cause”. Lets just get one thing strait here, I am not going to join. I am very much for the recreation center (because it is NOT a mosque – it is a rec center with a prayer room) being built. The space is privately owned, it will be privately funded by ahem... this is the kicker, the largest shareholder of FOX”news” aside from Murdoch. Yet FOX“news” has called this “guy” (they refuse to refer to him by name because someone might recognize him as the largest owner of FOX”news” outside of Murdoch) a sponsor of terrorist. Yup... they called one of their owners a financier of extremists. His name you ask? Why its alwaleed bin talal. He runs a little company called “The Kingdom Foundation” and is the nephew of King Abdulluh (king of Saudi Arabia).
So it is actually sort of being partially financed by the earnings of FOX“news”. Ok so now we have established that some American money is backing this PRIVATE enterprise (oh is Capitalism only good when it is doing what you want it to do? Yeah the notions of private enterprise can be a bitch when it isn't doing what you want it to.... sorry... tell that to the Jamaicans, they know). Ok so its clearly well within the bounds of our God of Capitalism. What about Capitalism's God-bitch, Democracy, how does she feel about it?
Weelllll...... considering the fact that America was born on immigration and freedom of religion, one would think that it fits in ok. I mean, isn't that why the first (or maybe second depending on what you call the native Americans) immigrants came to this country? The right to freedom of religion and freedom from religious persecution? It's kind of like the two BIGGEST American foundation myths. Doesn't it seem to suggest that building a Moslem rec center should be allowed? Its not like the tax-payers are funding this... FOX“news” certainly made that clear.
Ok, so it's fine by Capitalism and her bitch Democracy, what about the American character? How does it fit into our national character and our emotions?
Well... this requires a littles escapade into the land of crazytown. The cause that I was talking about earlier (yeah the one that looks really impressive and forbidding with its over use of CAPS and !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) people are saying some very funny things. I will share a few,
Johnathon Scott Steed writes:
“One nation under God, not Alah. Somebody needs to remind president Obama what this country was founded on, to build a mosque in the place where we were attacked is a slap in the the face to every true american. God have mercy on our souls.”
First of all, Allah is spelled with two Ls.... second, America/ns is supposed to be capitalized. And I have always heard that when you capitalize something it means you respect it (subconciously) and when you don't you subconsciously do not respect it. What does this guys non-capitalization of “american” say? Just curious.
In Response to J. Steed I say this:
You fucking idiotic ignoramus – this country was FOUNDED ON RELIGIOUS FREEDOM AND TOLERANCE – ARE YOU A MORON? (isn't all CAPS impressive? I can do it too!!!!!!!!!!!!!) actually please don't answer that. You are clearly one of the DUMBEST people in America (I respect my country). The fact that you even bring up America's foundations as a means to justify not allowing a Moslem rec center to be built just shows how insanely dumb you really are. Please do not procreate. I do not want your stupid children to be a part of the next generation that will someday run this country. Maybe go jump off something really high, or bang your head against a wall. And please, “God have mercy on our souls”? Dude... its over used... stop being fucking dramatic... seriously go bang your head against a brick wall.
That is all.
Tracy Patmore writes:
“What an offensive proposition. My thoughts go out to all the people who died on that terrible day. What kind of message does that send?”
My response (she at least can spell and string words together and use correct capitalization):
Clearly it sends a message of Tolerance. You know that little thing that America was founded on? If we really want to beat the extremists that threaten the world (um and not just Moslem extremists, have ya heard of a little group called the Westboro Baptists? Or what about those fucking idiots in florida (I don't respect florida I guess) burning copies of the Quran on 9/11) then we have to walk the walk. Sure America talks a great game, freedom, democracy, human rights, blah blah blah, but do we actually DO it??? ummmm sometimes? Yeah lets get a little street cred in the world and fucking walk the walk... there is hope for you Tracy, think a little bit more and you may actually become something. Good for you.
Glenda Kimbleton writes:
“Why should these people be allowed to build a mosque at Ground Zero or anywhere else in the U.S. We as Christians can not go to any of their countries and build a church or even speak of God. Let them go back where they came from and build all they want and cant until they fall out. Te were not invited to come to tis country and they are welcome to join us as Americans and Christians or they can go back as quickly as they came. Let the ones who come here learn to speak our language and worship our God or go backw\
w”
ok wow....... first of all.... learn to spell or maybe type.... seriously there is too much wrong with this to get into.
My response:
Glenda.... oh Glenda, Glenda Glenda.... you should really look into things before you say something. There are Christians in the Middle East that have Churches. Also have you not ever heard of a little thing called missionaries? Yeah its this small-scale movement, maybe you haven't heard of it where you come from in Dumbshit America. You know Christians (usually white men actually) kind of go to these places and relieve the poor savages of their backward ideas about life and Gods and their whole existence, and bring them into the fold of the Almighty. They tend to build churches in these place and preach about God and worship God and generally talk about him. Did you know that there are Arab Christians???? Yes! Really! There really are! Fucking Shocking right?!?! Oh Oh Oh and did you know that Moslems also revere Jesus???? did you??? ohhhhhhh and lets not forget that by your logic we should kick out all the Jews in America because they are not Christians, hell even those crazy Moslems look up to the dude... but the Jews... not them... so America is Christian and only Christian huh? Wow...... did not know that... I am SHOCKED. Does that mean that Buhddists are not allowed here? Sooo.... the Dalai Lama not welcome here???? interesting.............. and as far as your beautifully constructed sentence (which wow... made so much sense) “Let them go back where they came from and build all they want and cant until they fall out.” Building requires money, infrastructure, a stable government....... you know small things like that.... Let me tell ya a little something, America kinda fucked em over dude... yeah... wow... I said it. Iraq, well we stopped them from nationalizing their oil, took out the dude in power that had any sort of legitimacy and installed Sadam Hussein!!! yeah! Not Joking! And Afghanistan, where a shit ton of the terrorists come from, we funded them! The CIA did... it was a proxy war, (have you heard of those? Look into 'em there was a lot of shit that went down) Charlie Wilson... there is a movie about it, maybe if you don't want to pick up a book and read about it you will be able to convince yourself to watch a movie with Tom Hanks... very good, I hope your minuscule brain can handle it. The US and Israel gave the people weapons to kill Russians! And not just any people, but organized Moslem groups, known as offshoots of the Moslem Brotherhood (the one and the same group that Osama bin Laden came from... Holy fucking shit!!!!!) sooooo yeah let them go build until they fall out (I have no fucking idea what that even means Glenda... you need some edumakation my friend) with all that money that they have... cause yeah well oops they don't really have any... ha! Here is an idea, why don't you go meet J. Steed from above and bang your head against a wall with him! You know, become a productive member of society for once!
There is more.... much much much more.... if you are curious, please go look it up... I mean you can't make this shit up... here! This is the link!
http://www.causes.com/causes/506789?m=ec6389c6&recruiter_id=107392495&t=1283089030
(sorry last one, no comment... its just fucking funny. Preston Hitchcock writes: “America need to kick out them damn muzlam and tare down all mosques and burn the karan”) it speaks for itself.
So anyway back to our national character. It will be good for Americans. We as a nation need to keep growing. There are clearly still FAR too many idiots out there.... the only way we are going to keep growing up is to go through the painful changes. America NEEDS this Moslem rec-center to be built. Its simple.
On a more serious note.... I am going to go have a banana yum!
Saturday, April 17, 2010
no more work!!!
I do NOT want to go to work today.... All I want to do is lay in bed work on learning Arabic and read about Palestine..... NO WORK NO WORK NO WORK........ gahhhhhh..... I wonder how to say I dont want to work in Arabic... la adri! (that means I have no idea).... Like right now, I really should be getting ready for work, but instead I am sitting in bed, smoking a cig, in my robe, watching videos on youtube about learning Arabic.... and now my forays into learning Arabic has turned into listening to Palestinian hip-hop.... I love DAM... Ana Hubb DAM... (I love DAM)...
Its absolutely incredible what Palestinian hip hop is doing in the conflict. Did you know that Israeli teenagers are listening to it? they crowd DAM show, and NWR (another Palestinian hip hop group) went on tour with a contemporary Israeli dance company. Music and art and expression are bringing together the youths of this conflict in a way that has never been done before. The youth is so important in these situations, only by changing perceptions of the other can we hope to achieve lasting peace.
Its absolutely incredible what Palestinian hip hop is doing in the conflict. Did you know that Israeli teenagers are listening to it? they crowd DAM show, and NWR (another Palestinian hip hop group) went on tour with a contemporary Israeli dance company. Music and art and expression are bringing together the youths of this conflict in a way that has never been done before. The youth is so important in these situations, only by changing perceptions of the other can we hope to achieve lasting peace.
True equality is not something that will happen during our lifetime, but peace, peace is possible if it is wanted by the people. I heard that there are a lot of Israeli youths that are refusing to serve in the IDF because they don't agree with the occupation. These kids are being jailed for refusing to serve, the IDF is MANDATORY for all Israelis. Why should these people be jailed for refusing to believe what their government is telling them? They aren't drinking the kool-aid... this gives me so much hope, Israelis refusing to serve, Palestinians refusing to become suicide bombers, now if only the leaders of both countries could see what their people are telling them, then something might really happen. The youth is the future of these countries, unfortunately Israel has steadily become more and more rightest, meaning that the country is becoming more hardline than has ever been precedented.
Netanyahu is arguably one of the most extremist Israeli leaders ever. He has figured out new ways to dehumanize the Palestinians and with this new law just announced the other day, has given more power to IDF soldiers to deport Palestinians than ever before. Basically what is happening is going to affect 70,000+ Palestinian civilians. If these civilians (which are men, women, and children) dont have an I.D. card (yes an I.D. card like the Nazis forced on the Jews just prior to WWII) then they can be evicted and turned into refugees.
Well enough from my soapbox for now, I really probably should get ready for work.....
Wednesday, April 14, 2010
so inappropriate
I like someone that I really should not.... Yeah I totally made out with him the other night. We have decided that we are not allowed to drink together ever again... but then he came over again........ yeah we made plans to hang out yet again. Oh jeez what am I doing? He has a girlfriend that he lives with!!!!! bahhhhhhh..... apparently they are not happy... and I told him that we should not be doing this because of his situation but ultimately he is cheating not me... oh man... needs to stop right??? he is just so awesome. I really don't want to stop... plus he is incredibly handsome... UGHHHHHHHHH I have found myself smiling all day for no reason... thinking about him all day again for no reason other than the fact that this whole thing is just so very exciting.... This is such a bad plan....
Have you ever liked anyone that you were just very much not supposed to like?
Have you ever liked anyone that you were just very much not supposed to like?
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Pro-humanity, Pro-peace, Pro-conversation
I have been following Bradley Burston for some time now. He is an American Jew who went to college at Berkley and moved to Israel after he graduated. His columns are always insightful and very open minded. Speaking as someone that is neither pro-Palestine nor pro-Israel but rather as someone that is pro-humanity, I give this guy a lot of credit. I have learned a lot from is witty and open-minded words and while there are times I disagree with him, there are also times when I have to take a step back and examine why I disagree. Because these whys are fundamental in understanding bias and self. Ultimately life is about the conversation we have. Extremists must be valued as having a valid point of view just as much as any other person must be valued for their point of view. If only we as humans could learn to value one another and listen to one another as much as we listen to and value ourselves, don't you think the world would be better? I have to think it would be.... there can be no middle with out an end, and there can be no end with out an opposite end... or if you prefer an analogy closer to a circle (like I do myself) then there is no middle, beginning or end, just different positions on the same line which eventually inevitabley connects. because if we polarize our selves put oneself in a position of pro and anti than we miss the point completely. My mom always used to say, "you can bet the truth lies somewhere in the middle." but who is to say what truth is? well this is enough post-modern bull for now... I love GREY... no black no white just grey... infinite shades of grey, which eventually come back around
A Palestinian peace plan Israelis can live with
By Bradley Burston
Tags: Israel News, Ray Hanania
Ray Hanania is a compassionate and, in fact, delightful person, with rare insight into the aspirations and failings of Palestinians and Israelis. In the eyes of many, that alone ought to disqualify him from consideration as a leader in the Holy Land.
Add to that, the fact that the acclaimed journalist also happens to be a first-generation Palestinian-American married to a Jewish woman, as well as a stand-up comedian who has appeared alongside Jewish comics, and the self-destructively polarized electorate of the Holy Land will need to expend not a whiff of thought in dismissing him out of hand.
Which all makes his candidacy for the president of Palestine, and the Mideast peace proposal that is his platform, all the more compelling. He is realistic about his chances ("No, I don't expect to win"). But the Hanania plan embodies the radicalism of the truly moderate, and deserves much more than cursory consideration.
Consider his proposal for one of the thorniest municipal quandaries in the West Bank. Jews who wish to live in Hebron in a future state of Palestine, should be allowed to do so, he writes, "and should be protected, just as non-Jews. In fact, for every Jewish individual seeking to live in Palestine, a Palestinian should be permitted to live in Israel."
What Hanania is proposing is a two state solution that addresses not only quantifiable issues, but underlying emotional grievances, and the anguish in the histories of both sides. Cynics, and, in particular, the extremists among them, will reject it out of hand as simplistic and artificially balanced. But if peace is ever to be made in the Holy Land, it will be made despite extremists and not by them.
The following is the text of Hanania's outline. I have taken the liberty of numbering the clauses, with an eye toward facilitating discussion:
1. I support two-states, one Israel and one Palestine. As far as I am concerned, I can recognize Israel's "Jewish" character and Israelis should recognize Palestine's "non-Jewish" character.
2. I oppose violence of any kind from and by anyone. I reject Hamas' participation in any Palestinian government without first agreeing to surrender all arms and to accept two-states as a "final" peace agreement. But I also reject allowing Israeli settlers to carry any weapons and believe Israelis must impose the same restrictions on them.
3. I can support some settlements remaining - given the reality of 42 years of time passing - in a dunam-for-dunam land exchange. If Ariel is 500 dunams with a lifeline from Israel, then Israel gives Palestine 500 dunams in exchange.
4. Jerusalem should be a shared city and Palestinians should have an official presence in East Jerusalem. The Old City should be shared by both permitting open access to the city to all with a joint Palestinian-Israeli police presence.
5. Palestinian refugees would give up their demand to return to pre-1948 homes and lands lost during the conflict with Israel. Instead, some could apply for family reunification through Israel and the remainder would be compensated through a fund created and maintained by the United States, Israel, Egypt, Jordan, Syria, Saudi Arabia and the United Nations.
6. I also think Israelis should find it in their hearts to show compassion and offer their apologies to Palestinians for the conflict.
7. I support creation of a similar fund to compensate those Jews from Arab lands who lost their homes and lands, too, when they fled.
8. I think the Wall should be torn down, or relocated to the new borders. I have no problem separating the two nations for a short duration to help rebuild confidence between our two people.
9. All political parties, Palestinian and Israelis, should eliminate languages denying each other's existence, and all maps should be reprinted so that Israeli maps finally show Palestine and Palestinian maps finally show Israel.
10. A subway system should be built linking the West Bank portion of the Palestine state to the Gaza Strip portion of the Palestine State. Palestine should be permitted to build a seaport access to strengthen its industry, and an airport to permit flights and too and from the Arab and Israeli world.
11. I would urge the Arab World to renew their offer to normalize relations with Israel if Israel agrees to support the creation of a Palestinian State.
12. And I would ask both countries to establish embassies in each other's country to address other problems.
13. While non-Jewish Palestinians would continue to live in Israel as citizens, Jews who wish to live in settlements surrendered by Israel could become Palestinian citizens and they should be recognized and treated equally.
14. If Jews want to live in Hebron, they should be allowed to live in Hebron and should be protected, just as non-Jews. In fact, for every Jewish individual seeking to live in Palestine, a Palestinian should be permitted to live in Israel. In fact, major Palestinian populations in Israel could be annexed into Palestine (like settlements).
15. Another concept is to have non-Jews living in Israel continue to live there but only vote in Palestinian elections, while Jews living in Palestine would only vote in Israeli elections. A special citizenship protection committee could be created to explore how to protect the rights of minorities in each state.
16. Israel and Palestine should create joint-governing and security agencies working with the United States to monitor the peace, and establish an agency to pursue criminal acts of violence.
As in every potentially workable peace proposal, Hanania's plan has something in it to upset and disappoint everyone. But its underlying principle of compromise based on mutual respect and compassion, its openness to the needs and wounds of two victimized peoples, and its suggestion that grassroots sentiment for peace can succeed where leaders have so consistently failed, are surely as worthy of serious consideration, as anything currently on the table.
taken from Haaretz at http://www.haaretz.com/hasen/spages/1130354.html
A Palestinian peace plan Israelis can live with
By Bradley Burston
Tags: Israel News, Ray Hanania
Ray Hanania is a compassionate and, in fact, delightful person, with rare insight into the aspirations and failings of Palestinians and Israelis. In the eyes of many, that alone ought to disqualify him from consideration as a leader in the Holy Land.
Add to that, the fact that the acclaimed journalist also happens to be a first-generation Palestinian-American married to a Jewish woman, as well as a stand-up comedian who has appeared alongside Jewish comics, and the self-destructively polarized electorate of the Holy Land will need to expend not a whiff of thought in dismissing him out of hand.
Which all makes his candidacy for the president of Palestine, and the Mideast peace proposal that is his platform, all the more compelling. He is realistic about his chances ("No, I don't expect to win"). But the Hanania plan embodies the radicalism of the truly moderate, and deserves much more than cursory consideration.
Consider his proposal for one of the thorniest municipal quandaries in the West Bank. Jews who wish to live in Hebron in a future state of Palestine, should be allowed to do so, he writes, "and should be protected, just as non-Jews. In fact, for every Jewish individual seeking to live in Palestine, a Palestinian should be permitted to live in Israel."
What Hanania is proposing is a two state solution that addresses not only quantifiable issues, but underlying emotional grievances, and the anguish in the histories of both sides. Cynics, and, in particular, the extremists among them, will reject it out of hand as simplistic and artificially balanced. But if peace is ever to be made in the Holy Land, it will be made despite extremists and not by them.
The following is the text of Hanania's outline. I have taken the liberty of numbering the clauses, with an eye toward facilitating discussion:
1. I support two-states, one Israel and one Palestine. As far as I am concerned, I can recognize Israel's "Jewish" character and Israelis should recognize Palestine's "non-Jewish" character.
2. I oppose violence of any kind from and by anyone. I reject Hamas' participation in any Palestinian government without first agreeing to surrender all arms and to accept two-states as a "final" peace agreement. But I also reject allowing Israeli settlers to carry any weapons and believe Israelis must impose the same restrictions on them.
3. I can support some settlements remaining - given the reality of 42 years of time passing - in a dunam-for-dunam land exchange. If Ariel is 500 dunams with a lifeline from Israel, then Israel gives Palestine 500 dunams in exchange.
4. Jerusalem should be a shared city and Palestinians should have an official presence in East Jerusalem. The Old City should be shared by both permitting open access to the city to all with a joint Palestinian-Israeli police presence.
5. Palestinian refugees would give up their demand to return to pre-1948 homes and lands lost during the conflict with Israel. Instead, some could apply for family reunification through Israel and the remainder would be compensated through a fund created and maintained by the United States, Israel, Egypt, Jordan, Syria, Saudi Arabia and the United Nations.
6. I also think Israelis should find it in their hearts to show compassion and offer their apologies to Palestinians for the conflict.
7. I support creation of a similar fund to compensate those Jews from Arab lands who lost their homes and lands, too, when they fled.
8. I think the Wall should be torn down, or relocated to the new borders. I have no problem separating the two nations for a short duration to help rebuild confidence between our two people.
9. All political parties, Palestinian and Israelis, should eliminate languages denying each other's existence, and all maps should be reprinted so that Israeli maps finally show Palestine and Palestinian maps finally show Israel.
10. A subway system should be built linking the West Bank portion of the Palestine state to the Gaza Strip portion of the Palestine State. Palestine should be permitted to build a seaport access to strengthen its industry, and an airport to permit flights and too and from the Arab and Israeli world.
11. I would urge the Arab World to renew their offer to normalize relations with Israel if Israel agrees to support the creation of a Palestinian State.
12. And I would ask both countries to establish embassies in each other's country to address other problems.
13. While non-Jewish Palestinians would continue to live in Israel as citizens, Jews who wish to live in settlements surrendered by Israel could become Palestinian citizens and they should be recognized and treated equally.
14. If Jews want to live in Hebron, they should be allowed to live in Hebron and should be protected, just as non-Jews. In fact, for every Jewish individual seeking to live in Palestine, a Palestinian should be permitted to live in Israel. In fact, major Palestinian populations in Israel could be annexed into Palestine (like settlements).
15. Another concept is to have non-Jews living in Israel continue to live there but only vote in Palestinian elections, while Jews living in Palestine would only vote in Israeli elections. A special citizenship protection committee could be created to explore how to protect the rights of minorities in each state.
16. Israel and Palestine should create joint-governing and security agencies working with the United States to monitor the peace, and establish an agency to pursue criminal acts of violence.
As in every potentially workable peace proposal, Hanania's plan has something in it to upset and disappoint everyone. But its underlying principle of compromise based on mutual respect and compassion, its openness to the needs and wounds of two victimized peoples, and its suggestion that grassroots sentiment for peace can succeed where leaders have so consistently failed, are surely as worthy of serious consideration, as anything currently on the table.
taken from Haaretz at http://www.haaretz.com/hasen/spages/1130354.html
Sunday, April 11, 2010
My first Post
This is the first post by me, the Mad Renegade. Not really sure what this blog will serve as. Partial political outcry, partial mad rants, partial philosophical medium. I am ok with that.
Random note... Got a new tattoo 2 days ago. I must admit it is very fantastic. It says Salaam (in Arabic of Course) on top, Shalom (in Hebrew) underneath and the main part is a peace dove holding an olive branch. Very simple, very elegant, very zen. Translation uber me. oh you don't know this about me, well cause you don't know me, I am moving to Palestine/Israel at some point. Definitely moving to Turkey in September. I can't wait! Going to teach English abroad to build up my CV. But aside from Turkey. Palestine.... my dream..... I am not Jewish, or Arab, or really anyone. But I care. And I will wage peace and not war.
I have pretty much refused to get into this whole blogging thing because it seems so self-serving... Who am I to go on and on about nothing? Why does anyone care? I just really don't get it. But then I realized that its just a way to assert your identity and maybe connect with people in a (hopefully) meaningful way, so ok thats cool whatever. I can get down with it.
Quick Bio:
I am 25
Still have not graduated college (ohhh the shame)
Still live with my mom (ohhhh the shame)
I work at a small coffee shop
Love love love Anthropology especially the Middle East
mmm Guilty pleasure... anything salty
ok thats all for now, thank you readers, if there are any!
Till next time!
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